So I was standing in the cafeteria yesterday after my last exam feeling pretty low. I was holding it together until the caf lady told me she'd pay for my lunch and then I started to fall apart. My friend paid for my midwifery clothing (I love you!), that I didn't even want to wear, having felt so abandoned by the program and most of my classmates, and all I could do was sit and cry.
The first years were coming in to pick up their clothing, all asking how things were going and offering help. Then the girl who I was selling my textbooks to (sniff) came in. She asked me what was wrong, where my placement was and how much the rent was.
I answered, not really understanding her line of questioning.
Until she told me she would pay my rent.
What??
Yeah. She said she was willing and able to pay for my rent so I could go to placement.
So now what? I'm not sure if I will go. I was at a tenuous peace with not going, but I'll tell you what she did for me.
She took all the bitterness and pain out of this whole situation.
So I'm sitting here in my midwifery shirt AND sweatshirt.
I still don't know what to do, but my heart is happier now.
Thank you, from the bottom of my (happy) heart.
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That was the issue?
If I'd known that. . . . .
I am sorry, I wish I'd known.
My mother always says that what goes around, comes around. Many people have money, but they are utterly and absolutely unwilling to give of time, compassion, grace, kindness, thought and care.
You give abundently of those things. God has a way of giving back.
Give and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken to settle, and running over will be handed to you. For with the same measure you give, it will be given to you.
Luke 6:38.
I'm glad.
No, Mrs. S. That's not the only issue. It was only one of many. Please don't be sorry. Your support has been wonderful.
Wow. I am without words.
Well, not completely! :-)
If you still feel in your gut that the decision to wait was the right one, go with that.
If this changes things, weigh all your options again.
What I DO think you are meant to get from this (regardless of your ultimate decision) is that "someone" (you know in my world that is God, but to someone else it might mean something different, and I respect that) is looking out for you and sees you right where you are. That's pretty cool.
Something similar happened with me when Peter matched in GR, and I was concerned about getting a job, etc. and the opportunity came to me to work from home. While it ultimately didn't turn out to be a good idea (since I did try it), the message I received was that the Lord saw my situation and wanted to tell me that he *saw* me...that not everything was bad. That he COULD change things. I remember very clearly that He said, "Do you think I can't make the impossible possible?" You know the outcome, but the message remained (remains?) clear...take that for what it's worth. It's just advice, afterall.
Wow, I just re-read what I wrote, and I hope you can decode it. I'm a little under the weather! Best of luck! Thinking of you!
Wow! Someone was really watching out for you that day. I can't believe you came across so many giving people. I bet you were absolutely touched. I know I am, and it wasn't even for me. You'll have to let us know what you decide to do. :)
There really are good people left in this world.
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