I was reminded again this weekend what a true blessing it is to have a space I can share with my family. I had much of the clan over to celebrate our patriarch's birthday (dear grandfather). The house was full of noise and chaos, but so many smiles everywhere I looked. My grandfather surveyed the scene, I think, with a feeling of gratitude (we almost lost him last year) and joy. It was lovely.
I'm also considering doing something that would make my Mom very happy - going back to church. I left quite a few years ago now because I felt it was hypocritical with the all of the backstabbing and politics and because I refused to believe that everyone else (i.e. non-Christian) was wrong. It's not that that has changed, but I'm realizing now that my reason for being there has nothing to do with any of the people there, but everything to do with the message and connection. I'm still not sure about it, but I think the rebellion phase of my spiritual upbringing is over. I'm not the same person I was when I was there, but my problem is not with God. Ugh, so confusing. I've never been one to really talk about it.
So how was your weekend?
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my weekend was pretty nice. My MIL was up. She's a lovely guest and really helps with Robbie a lot.
She did try to poison me with a cake iced entirely with decorator icing (vomit!) but fortunately she's lovely so I'll forgive her.
On the church front- I went through the same thing. I also hated being associated with "Christianity" when I associated so many Christians with being such judgy, harsh, non-supportive actions.
In the end, I decided that those of us who AREN'T the way need to be more vocal about how things SHOULD be, and try to clean up a Christian image a bit.
I can totally relate on the church front. I quit going to church for over 4 years for the same reasons. Hubs and I always said we would go back when we moved to a different state or got pg. The first because the state we lived in was dominated by the religion, so the people were all stuck up @$$ holes about being staunch (Hubs said I should qualify my statement by saying I'm not in a good mood today lol), and the second because we want our children to have God in their lives. As fate would have it, both happened at the same time, so we went back to church last August.
The bottom line is that the people you worship with will absolutely affect your experience. They can make it pleasant or make it hell to be there.
I say go and see if things have changed. What can it hurt?
Just popping over to say hello! We've been out of town for a week. I'm glad you had a great time with your family...sounds like everyone enjoyed it. I am glad to hear you are considering the church thing, too. Let us know how it goes. Much love, my friend!
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