Who Cares

Well, so far no one is trading with me for the placement I need to get if I want to stay with my children. The excuses I've gotten have included "I have responsibilities too" to "I can't afford it" both from girls without children. The one girl who led me to believe she would trade with me is apparently trading with someone else now. I am heartbroken. Utterly. It's not so much that the school has let Moms down with the way its laid out, it's that this group of girls, who have pretended for over a year to care about me, about other Mothers, about children, are not willing to do anything to help. I have to wonder what they're really in the program for after all.
I'm not sure what I'm going to do. On the one hand, I feel like telling them all where to go but then I remember that at the end of all this are women who need good midwives that will honestly give a shit about them and who aren't going to throw them over when the going gets tough. I'm just so floored that it's come to me having to offer money to my classmates just so I don't have to leave my kids.
My best friend is right. This is the ME generation.
I think I'd rather have a recession....

PS I would understand if the reasons weren't solely related to simply not wanting to make the effort, but that's all they are. We're a close enough class for me to know that.